Some Thoughts

Four months after I returned from Brazil wrote some feelings and thoughts. This was the result.

I wanted to write some thoughts I'm having. It's been almost four months since I've come back to the United States from Brazil and I do not know how to describe my situation. So many things happened. It seems sometimes, that I'm forgetting everything about Brazil. I am worried about that, I don't want to forget everything, especially not my mission. I ask myself sometimes, how can I forget such a great experience? I was in a place so different than here. I miss it. I miss everything. I miss Ilhéus, Brumado, Vitória da Conquista, Salavdor, Bahia in general. I was in a place so different and I'm forgetting everything now. How?

It seems that all this happened a long time ago. But it was not so, it was only a few months ago. Maybe, it seems so because I've grown accustomed to life here. I was someone different there. I'm not the same person now. I lost some of the attributes. Perhaps the answer is that my focus is on different places. I look in the mirror and see someone different, I see a person in normal clothes. I don't see anyone who was dressed in white shirt and a black name tag.

The other day I found some souvenirs. I thought about the different places where I worked and I miss it all greatly. I don't know how to explain it completely.

I didn't want to come to Brazil. I had times when I did not want to stay. But I did, and it was worth it all. I don't know when I can come back, but it won't be the same thing. It was a unique experience and wouldn't trade it for anything.

I need to find a way to preserve these memories. It's hard when you have many distractions in your life. I never thought I would feel this way. Nobody said it would be easy, nobody said it would be so hard. Now I want more time there. More time to see life and the people. More time to make friends and talk. More time to see the cities. That time is gone and it's never coming back.

Now Brazil represents more than I thought, it has become a part of my life. How can I forget? The mind is weak, and also powerful. Even if you have the power to forget, you have the power to remember. I still have hope that I'll be able to remember it all one day.

Alguns Pensamentos

Quatro meses depois voltei de Brasil escrevi alguns sentimentos e pensamentos. Isso foi o resultado.

Queria escrever alguns pensamento que estou tendo. Faz quase quatro meses que volto para os Estados Unidos de Brasil e não sei como descrever minha situação. Tantas coisas aconteceram. Parece as veses, que já estou esquecendo tudo de Brasil. Fico preocupado sobre disso, Eu não quero esquecer tudo, nem minha missão. Pregunto as veses, como posso esquecer uma experiéncia tão grande? Estava num lugar tão differente aquí. Sinto falta. Sinto falta de tudo. Sinto falta de Ilhéus, Brumado, Vitória da Conquista, Salavdo, de Bahia em geral. Estava numa lugar tão differente e estou esquecendo tudo. E como?

Parece que tudo isso aconteceu muito tempo atraz. Mas, não foi assim, foi só algumas meses. Talvez, parece assim porque já acustimei para vida aquí. Lá estava uma pessoa differente. Não sou a mesma pessoa.. Perdi alguns dos atributos. Talvez isso é a resposta. Meu foco está em lugares differentes. Olho no espelho e vejo uma pessoa differente, vejo uma pessoa em ropas normais. Não vejo ninguém que estava vestido com camisa branca e uma plaqueta preta.

A outra dia, encontrei algumas lembranças. Pensei nas áreas que trabalhei e sinto uma grande falta. Nem sei como explicar completamente.

Lembro que não queria vir para Brasil. Tinha momentos em que não queria ficar. Mas fiquei, e valeu a pena. Não sei quando posso voltar, mas sei que não será a mesma coisa. Foi uma experiência única e não trocaria por nada.

Preciso encontrar um jeito para preservar estas memórias. É difícil quando tem muitas distraçðes em minha vida. Nunca pensei que sentiria assim. Ninguém falou que seria fácil, ninguém falou que seria tão difícil. Agora quero mais tempo lá. Mais tempo para ver a vida e a pessoal. Mais tempo para fazer amizades e conversar. Mais tempo para ver as cidades. O tempo passou e não terá mais.

Agora brasil represtenta mais do que pensei, é uma parte de minha vida. Como posso esquecer? A mente é fraca, e também poderosa. Ainda que tem poder para esquecer, tem poder para lembrar. Ainda tenho esperança para lembrar tudo um dia.

(c) Copyright 2010

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Ok... so... yeah....

It's been quite a long while since I have posted something. I have done some major work on certain projects since then. However, I've since started college so I have much less time now. Hopefully, I'll have something more to post sometime later.

Download Count

I decided to do a count of the total downloads for all the games that I have posted just to see how things were going. I counted from the YoYoGames website as well as the Download site and these were the results.

Scourge: of the Dark Knight: 117
Auto-Warrior: 80
Project # 98: 64
Block Blocker's Maze Thing: 41
The Man!: 15
Cubis: 13

Total Downloads: 330

I think that my calculations are correct. I was never really good at Math. I do like the progress I have made, but I can do more. Please feel free to download these games and have fun.

As for an update... Well, not really all that much is happening, I'm hoping that all changes. It might be a while before I am able to have anything completed.

Auto-Warrior Release

Ok, finally I'm releasing it. I'm pretty sure that I've already talked about it and also put up several screen shots. SO, I'll just post the links to download and play.

Download

Play on YoYo Games

ENJOY THE AWESOME FUN TIMES!!

THE MAN!

I decided to try and make a game in an hour and a half. The result was THE MAN!. Check it out.




Download

Play at YoYoGames

Plus, I should be releasing Auto-Warrior real soon.

Small Update

I have a lot of projects I'm working on. I have a habit of getting distracted with a new and different project. I have so many unfinished projects... Anyway, I hope to have some new stuff in the works that I'll have ready shortly. (Fingers crossed.)


Auto-Warrior is probably the project that is the furthest along. Really all that is lacking is Music and some other bug testing. I've gotten tired of trying to play through it all the time and so I haven't done anything with it for about a week. I hope to have it finished by the end of the month.


This project is called Dodger Chopper 2. You can download the original here. The sequel will be drastically improved in many aspects.

That's really all for now... I like posting screen shots.

Recent Happenings

I am moving back to Texas, I never really thought I'd be saying that. I thought Oregon was more of a permanent thing.

Anyway, I have done little writing, so I have little to report in that respect. I have done some from time to time, but nothing too extensive. If you do have a desire to look at some of my writing works check out this page here:

My WeBook Profile

Be sure to check out my stuff and if you have a profile on WeBook be sure to leave some feedback on my stuff. AND NO STEALING!!

Now for some Screen shot fun on some game programming projects.

The first two screens are from the sequel to Auto-Warrior. I have pretty much completed the first one, it's still has a few bugs to work out before I make the final release. The sequel will include many attributes of the first, however with many added features. You will be able to choose between four different classes. You will have many more abilities and battle strategies. The story will be a little more beefier and will also allow multiple paths to take. It is still very much in the early stages, or in other words, I'm still constructing the basic engine.

This is an interesting project. I've always wanted to make a Zelda-type game. I'm trying to limit myself in many aspects for this project. I want to make it very simple and enjoyable.


These are some very old screen shots of The Dragon. I've changed a lot and the style of it from what you see here. I've decided to completely start from scratch. Here is an old demo of it. Check out and give feedback.

That's what's been going on with me. Check out what I've been doing and tell me what you all think.

Stop-Motion Animation

I was really into Stop-Motion a couple of years back and I made these two videos. It has been a long time, and I have since lost some interest in doing this. But, I thought, just to post something, I'll put these on. ENJOY!!


Bloque

Snake Eater

Recent Work

First off, I'm going to post a demo for Auto-Warrior. I would appreciate feedback for this one. You can download it here.

http://host-a.net/Marcos_del_bauer/Auto-Warrior.exe

Here's an extra Screenshot here:

THE DRAGON

I also have some new Screenshots for some other projects I've been working on.

I know it's not much to look at and there has not been hardly any progress at all on this one. I've only decided to increase the resolution and add color. I have done a few attempts on some other engines for the project, but it keeps on being on and off again. I do hope to make more progress in the future.

AUTO-WARRIOR 2

I know that I'm starting on a sequel before I released the completed first one, but I couldn't help myself. I started off by just messing around with the original graphics and I liked the results. So now, I find myself working on the sequel.

So, there you have it, a few updates. I hope you all are looking forward to all this.

Two Movie Reviews

LAST CHANCE HARVEY

I rented this movie with high expectations. I mean with Dustin Hoffman and Emma Thompson as the leads, you would think it would a really good film. This is usually the case when you’re dealing with high quality actors of the like. But, Last Chance Harvey just ended up falling short.
The story basically follows a depressing old man (Hoffman) as he goes to his daughter’s wedding. After a couple of awkward, depressing moments in the film, he meets a woman (Emma Thompson) almost as depressing as he is. It’s depressing and I felt depressed watching through most of the film. The bottom line is that my expectations were let down time and time again. How could something that had so much potential fall short? I did laugh at a few parts, yet some things just didn’t quite make all that much sense to me.
I watched it with my sister-in-law and she hated it. I, however, somewhat liked it. However, I don’t really recommend it to anybody who wants to feel better about themselves or about life. It’s slow paced, and you do feel sorry for the characters sometimes. I just can’t help but feel that it could have been done so much better.
It was mediocre at best.

Rating: Bad – Stupid – Mediocre at Best – Good – Really Good – Excellent


GHOST TOWN

Now, Ghost Town was a big surprise for me. I really wasn’t expecting much from this film. As it started out, I thought “Wow, this looks pretty predictable.” Then, I was utterly taken off guard. The movie starts off with a “screw you” moment.
It’s a “romantic comedy” in that it’s a comedy that has a love story. It does focus on the comedy aspect more than the romance. I was actually surprised that the movie did have some heart to it; it was a bit touching at times. It wasn’t too depressing or emotional, it was well balanced.
It held my attention, and kept me going. It was the first movie in a long while that I had laughed so much. It was good, really good.

Rating: Crap – Stupid – Mediocre at Best – Good – Really Good – Excellent

Copyright (c) 2009

Games Update and Block Blocker's Maze Thing

I'm going to do a translation to Portuguese for Scourge: of the Dark Knight. I just started that today and I'll probably have that finished soon. There's not a lot of text in that game so the translation will be quick.

I also started working on a prequel for Scourge: of the Dark Knight. The project is dubbed "Prelude". Here are some screens of the engine so far:

I'm just working on the basic engine right now, so there's not much to look at right now.

Also, I'm releasing a Maze game called Block Blocker's Maze Thing. It's a simple maze game.

Download:

http://host-a.net/Marcos_del_bauer/Block%20Blocker's%20Maze%20Thing.exe

Play:

http://www.yoyogames.com/games/show/93067

Play my Games of Awesome Design!